Reality Check

Let's get real here for a second: My current job ends on Thursday, in a big-I-dont-know-how-im-going-to-pay-rent-or-afford-my-clothing-addiction kind of way.

Here's a short recap of my life: I just graduated and was planning on being a teacher. Then the teaching economy in Illinois bombed in a very large way. It made getting a teaching job hard, which made me think, "hmm, its hard finding a job, maybe I don't really want to teach anymore" and which then made me think that I want to go into business.


Well, fast forward to the present ----- NO JOB!


I have been shockingly, make that very shockingly, calm about this ordeal. I have been positive that I will have something lining up in no time. Ya, guess what.....


NO JOB!


I have a few leads here and there, but I really don't know what is going to materialize.


On one hand, I'm God forsaken scared shitless that it will be months and I will be unsure, unhappy and broke. And on another strange side, I'm really excited to see what is going to come of my life. Maybe I will fulfill an unknown part of myself and find great success and happiness in an area I didn't know I would love.


I'm a big girl now, with big girl bills to pay, and I need a big girl job.



Here's hoping I get a really great phone call tomorrow offering me a 100k job where I only work 3 days a week and they offer me a bonus in the form of Louboutins!