The First Two Weeks

To be honest - these last two weeks, overall, have been great.

I have much preferred the 2nd time mom thing - all of the fearful thoughts, anxieties, emotions and hormones are still there (for me, at least) - but I have found peace (at times) knowing that they do slow down, that eventually they do go away, and life does have a way of getting back to normal eventually.

And because of that, everything has moved onward and upward at a much quicker pace than it did with my first baby.

Really, everything has been faster.

We left the hospital faster, my milk came in faster, Drew nurses faster, she has gained weight faster, I've healed faster, we bathed her faster, we've figured her out a little faster, we've gotten into a tiny groove faster, and most of all......time seems to be moving faster.

Of course, because babies can't just be a cake walk, the issue with 2nd time mom-ing is you have one older kid.

Add a new sibling, Christmas, tons of presents, treats, and lack of schedule with zero outside activities because its freaking freezing, having your dad home for two weeks, and your mom not being able to do much because she is nursing a baby and recovering from a C-section = some trouble.

We've heard "no" more than ever, we are seeing lots more opposition (even to fun things), we're not eating well, we're using more attitude then ever, AND we climbed out of the crib for the first time.

All things I've been assured 100x over are totally normal, somewhat get better, and are just par for the course.

But they still suck. And I miss my relationship with Leo too. It's been a tough 4 weeks for us, and not being able to hold him or play with him like we are used to is heartbreaking. 

But that will pass too.

So, that's where we stand two weeks in. We're getting by, we're having some fun, we're adjusting, and we're so, so thankful.