You guys.......I'm about to have a very, unimportant, and whiney emotional dump of words.
Work is not going well.
I started my new position and I hate it.
It's really, really, really high stress.
I'm not comfortable or confident = two aspects of the job that are absolutley necessary.
My boss, who I really, really like....is overwhelmed himself and isn't being as supportive as I need him to be right now.
I am taking small issues/problems/errors/mistakes as enormous, life altering, wine inducing, xanax-needing problems.
For my job to get better, for me to be comfortable, and for me to sell successfully, I already know the solution = I need to get a POSTIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE.
I need to mediate and get to a place where I can handle the stress, and tackle it. I need to be able to start work at 8am and completely leave work behind at 5pm. I need to trust myself and believe in my success. I need to know that I can do this, and I've been put in this position because other believe this too.
Tomorrow is a new day and I need to be ready to handle tomorrow with a new perspective.
But....in the meantime, I'm going to sulk, I'm going to enjoy my wine, I'm going to head to my cousins and watch the Social Network, and then I'm going to go to sleep. And hopefully, when I wake up, I will remind myself that I am blessed with health, and love, and friends. I am blessed that I have a job. And most importantly, I'll try again.
This motivates me to do a better job at work!! And don't worry, it'll get better. Though if it doesn't, it is just a job. There are much more important things in life
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry work isn't going well :( I hate that feeling of not feeling good enough. I'm sure over time though you'll be fabulous! Obviously your boss thought you could do it or you wouldn't have gotten the position.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, it will get easier!